It is January, and that means resolutions. I know almost no one sticks to them, and I am no exception. Every year, I say to myself, "This is the year!" and decide I will make some kind of change. And I don't. However, I want this year to be different.
For the last year, I have been completely consumed with medical information, hospitals, doctors, therapy, and medicine. I have not taken great care of myself, and it is very clear to me that I can no longer afford to do this. For the last few months, I have been feeling less and less comfortable in my own skin. The months of sitting in hospitals and eating my stress have taken their toll: I weigh more now than I did at 9 months pregnant! It is definitely not something I want to continue, so I am trying to put a stop to it now. I am fighting every day to give Scarlett a better life, and I want to enjoy it with her. I want to be an active participant in her childhood, and not regret that I couldn't do things with her like I wanted to.
I am not good at making big changes; I am really a routine-bound person. Taking this into consideration, I have been trying to make a little tweak here or there that I can live with for a few weeks, then add something else. For instance, I have cut out a lot of coffee from my diet. The coffee itself isn't so bad, but the way I drink my coffee (basically caffeinated hot chocolate!) wasn't doing me any favors. Since essentially everyone in my family is vegetarian or vegan now, I can pretty easily cut most of the meat from my diet - not weight-affecting in itself, but a path to more fruits and veggies. I am also drinking a lot more water (or tea) during the day.
I am also determined to add more activity into my day. When I was teaching, I inevitably got more walking in just chasing kids. Now, I have to create opportunities to move. We have had a Wii for a few years, but it has been mostly dormant for a while. I got a few new games to spice it up, and I am making time for 30-minute sessions right now. I am also going to try to take Scarlett and Cosmo on more walks, but I haven't been able to make this happen yet (luckily, we have had the most un-winterly Winter so far in the Bay Area - about 60 degrees every day).
This is not a groundbreaking plan, I know. I am just trying to make a change that I can live with that makes me feel better. I am posting about it here for a little accountability...I went public now, so other people know what I am working toward! If I have any major successes (or failures, even) I will try to keep you updated.