Scarlett sent me flowers for Mother's Day (I think her daddy helped...) I mostly enjoyed spending the day with a happy baby who is beginning to feel better. It seems like she needs to throw up once in the morning, but then she does well all day. I just hope that she begins to eat more soon. She will take about 2 oz. ever few hours, but that's not nearly enough to meet her hydration and calorie needs, so we supplement every night with NG feeds.
I have not had much chance to reflect on what it is like to be a mother; I am too busy actually being one. I feel like that last 7 months have been a blur, more "Extreme Mothering: Cancer Edition" than fairy tale. I know other people look at me and think I am doing something incredible, but it is the only way I know. Being Scarlett's mom is not an easy job, but I do find joy in it every day. I love her little noises and smiles, the way she grabs my fingers and holds my hand close to her face. I love everything about her, no matter how challenging, and I commit every day to fighting for her.
I hope that next Mother's Day, chemo is behind us and I am still enjoying my little girl every day.